Congrats my dear dan it's great what you do but first of all do it for you... I 'll say as sodan you have to know how to stop when the time comes. good luck to you and I'm here if you need...
you know I was often told at the hotel school "we don't drink to forget but to remember" and it's true if you look closely that the more you drink, the more the memories come back to the surface... I trust you, I'm sure you 'll be fine. Good luck, we're all with you.
we drink to forget but when we reflect the next day the worries are revisited. and sometimes twice we get angry because we haven't drunk. unfortunately I think the old demons always come back. he always learn to fight them; with time you will become angry about them